GRAVEYARD

[cartesio]

The other side...?

Have you started feeling at home in Cartesio yet? The town has offered you every hospitality that its citizens could think of. They love every corner of this town and they want you to feel the same. Have you accepted Cartesio into your heart yet?

Then it should be comforting to wake in your hotel room. A ceiling you have gotten used to, the warmth of a blanket surrounding you, your own breathing... and silence. All-encompassing silence.
It perseveres when you leave your room, it perseveres when you leave the hotel... Cartesio is quiet because there is nobody in Cartesio who could be making noise. It's a ghost town.

There is only you now, you think. And then, just as you've given up, a noise comes to your ears. A voice, unmistakably. It's time to follow it.

As of Week 5 you may see random objects and buildings of any size flicker. For milli-seconds they seem to glow on and off, blur around the edges, even distort a little. It only happens for a moment at a time, but it happens fairly often.

Welcome to the Cartesio Graveyard. Your character has woken up in a version of the town that is devoid of citizens, but there do seem to be a few people around. Time to explore the mysteries of the other side. For a more thorough OOC guide, we have compiled an FAQ.

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[pursuitofdeath]

[Ah. It's so bittersweet to see the people he cares about again. But he'd never turn down a hug from this lovely lady. But what she says... he hums about that and chuckles.]

It's amusing... I spent a long time chasing death... and it's only when I stopped that it finally came to take me. But I think it's better that it's someone like me who's accepted that fate since I was young, than one of the others.

[For something so serious, well-- he's taking it well. Example--]

After all. I got to be reunited with you, didn't I~?

[Dazai STOP.]

[integratedsoul]

[ Cian looks caught off-guard for a moment. Dazai shouldn't be saying something like this to her... not anymore, not ever, not... Well, it's a moot point to argue it. She doesn't have the power to do so either. ]

We missed you, but that doesn't mean... it shouldn't have happened like this.

Though I admit that I thought the same about my death, you know? Better someone who's already so close to death than any of the others. So... I can't really argue with you there.

[pursuitofdeath]

I was no longer the best suited for that fight. They're going to need to give it their all if they want to get out of this place. I... don't know that I could have given them that, much as I tried.

[He'd made an effort, but it still all felt very hollow. like going through the motions in the absence of something more genuine.

They deserved better than that.]

Still... I can't agree with you on that. You may have struggled between life and death, but I at the very least had wanted to see you have the chance to overcome it.

cw suicide

[integratedsoul]

[ That gets a sad smile from Cian. ]

I felt the same about you, you know? I was relieved you'd lived up until now. And if nothing else, I'd wanted a better death for you. One to your tastes, you know?

[ The idea of suicide is very strongly linked to rebellion and choice in Cian's mind. Though death is the end goal, the method is almost equally as important in her view. ]

[pursuitofdeath]

It's not as beautiful as it seems, in the moment when you're living in that battle. And when I died, that death did go against everything I'd striven for in the past. It caused trouble for everyone and it was painful and long.

[Yet he doesn't regret it, which is probably the most amusing aspect of it all.]

But... somehow that seems fitting. When I stopped reaching for that death... it seems more natural that the death I would get wouldn't be something I wanted. Because I was attempting to live, even though it was something I didn't know how to do in the slightest at any particular moment.

There's something to be said for that kind of irony.

[integratedsoul]

Living's way too complicated.

[ Cian shakes her head a little. ]

It's doable though. And now that you're here, it isn't even technically living. You can start by just existing and see how it goes.

[ She pauses and then adds on: ] Is there anything you've always wanted to do but didn't find an opportunity for maybe?

[ ... yes, she is absolutely trying to motivate Dazai in a similar way she did with Oda, nobody call her out on this. ]

[pursuitofdeath]

I don't think I've ever had something like that.

[Something he's wanted to do... there really isn't anything like that. No dreams or aspirations. Nothing like what she's thinking anyway.]

However... I've been starting to think that it might be nice if I could continue to exist alongside the people I care about a bit longer.

[It's not completely hopeless.]

Who knows. Maybe someday I'll find something like that.